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February 12, 2012
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suicideblonde:

The summer of 1992 I was 13 years old and just out of the 8th grade.  I was a total spazz socially, tending to bombard people with my intense energy.  Add on to that the fact that I wasn’t even remotely able to admit that I was gay, and you have one lost girl.  There was only one place that I felt safe, where I could be free - inside of a song. 

My very strict Christian parents allowed me to listen to a limited list of secular artists.  I was allowed to have The Bodyguard soundtrack because Whitney Houston sang Jesus Loved Me on it - little did my parents know the epic camp queerness of this album.  

I spent my summer listening to nothing but side A of that cassette tape - Whitney’s side - I Will Always Love You, I’m Every Woman, I Have Nothing, Queen of the Night.  I would press the earbuds of my Sony Sports walkman into my ears as I lipsynced along with Whitney and felt every deep emotion along with her.  She was expressing all the overwhelming feelings that were churning inside my confused brain, calling out things that I couldn’t beginning to form yet.  The relief was emotion pressure being released.  I listened to that tape so much that I rubbed all the writing off it, wore the tape down in places.

Thank you for being there when I needed you during all the times in my life, Whitney.


(via suicideblonde)

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    chills reading this.
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    Bodyguard soundtrack changed my life as well, particularly this song....maybe 11 when I...
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